And I'm beginning to hate everyone I know
I wish that I never knew them this much
Then all my fantasies wouldn't get ruined
And then I wouldn't lose my last hope in these people
I got disappointed and disappointed again and again
So you know I will just stop trying until the right person shows up
You were the last chance I gave to these people
But you disappointed me
So I'll just stick to my not human friends
I guess that would be better
Maybe that bl**dy soulmate of mine shows up and things change
But until then I won't try anymore
I'm just tired of all these very normal and boring people
They just make me sick
I'm tired of getting angry over their dumbness
Maybe I'm just too different
But really does that mean that no one in the world can understand me or at least try to understand me?!
There's not even one person in the world that I can connect to?!
If the answer is yes
Then it really hurts
And till now the answer seems to be yes
And that's why I'm so disappointed and hopless
Great
Yeah awesome
Yeal well I don't give a f*ck anymore
Let's just enjoy my solitude
Well again I'm sure none of this will ever happen↑
I guess my b**dy mind will tell me try one more time
You'll regret it later
And when I try
We see that things just get worse
Then shut up my stupid mind
I don't want to listen to your never working suggestions
Not anymore
Tema tema
Where are you?! :(
They laugh...
I laugh...
All these things I hate...
↑For myself
Don't try to understand
از تازه به دوران رسیده ها و اونایی که بیخودی ادعای فضل میکنن و اونایی که بدون اینکه چیز خیلی خاصی داشته باشن خودشونو میگیرن متنفرم متنفرم متنفرم...
ولی چرا اعصاب خودمو سر همچین احمقایی خورد میکنم؟!
چرا بازم باهاشون خوب رفتار میکنم یا کمکشون میکنم در حالیکه میخوام نبینمشون و دلم میخواد انقد تخریب شخصیتشون کنم انقد زیر کتک بگیرمشون که نگو؟!
خب فک کنم چون یه احمق زیادی مهربونم ولی جالب اینجاست که ساده لوح نیستم چون میفهمم و اینکارو میکنم! :/
آه لعنت کاشکی میشد این احساسات لعنتی رو خاموش کرد فقط درد دارن آه لعنت ولی به قول اون وقتی اخساسات منفی رو خاموش کنی مثبتم خاموش میشه! >_<
دوس ندارم بی رحم باشم و دوس دارم گاهی بی رحم باشم!
دوس دارم بی حس باشم و دوس ندارم بی حس باشم!
اه لعنت به من! تکلیفتو روشن کن!!!! :(
When the snows fall
And the white winds blow
The lone wolf dies
And the pack survives
...
George R. R. Martin
Those with friend(s) can never understand lonely people
They can't understand the pain of feeling lonely in a crowd
They can't stand being alone
It scares them
They just can't understand loneliness
And lonely people
And they can't help either
Ahhh damn it
I feel so different that it bothers
I can't communicate with others
I can't connect to people
No one understands me
Some are disgusting
Some are boring
Some are annoying
Some are cruel
Some have anything they want
Some get what they want whenever they want without any effort
Some are indifferent about the others and don't care about other people
Some are stingy
Some are numb
Some are selfish
Some are always sad like me but always smile and hide their true feelings duo to their own reasons that might be trying to not hurt the others or just know that even if they say their true feelings no one cares or understands
Can anyone give me a good laugh?
I guess not
I now stop trying to help everyone and spend my precious time just to give them hope or make them happy or just help them in anyways
Heh I'm sure I won't do that
Sh*t why should I be like this
Have Courage and be a complete idiot(=kind) Where's my bl**dy happy ending
Where's my blo**dy soulmate
I guess (s)he is dead
Toonaciied
?!
Cause that would be really nice
Hoping for Christmas Miracle
And all I wish for is
...
Oh I shouldn't just say my wish like that
Then it won't come true
*Sigh*
Itanwnaenledsespsle
Let's see well
But I'm sure no one cares