I don't wanna see her like this
I miss her
I don't wanna lose her
I don't wanna lose myself
I want to go there
And see everything is alright again
Everything is like what it was before
I can't just go there
And pretend
Like everything is ok
I'm ok
Because I'm not
I don't like strangers
F*ck
People ruin everything
I wanna be who I am
I wanna show my emotions
I'm tired of pretending
These days making myself happy has gotten harder
And I hardly ever laugh
I feel like all my smiles and laughs are just acting
I feel like they're not real
I don't like it
It's ok but just don't expect me to consider you a friend
Not anymore
Now you're nothing to me like others
But the stupid thing is I still care
Cause I'm an idiot
Of course
By the way
I got friends again with k. Yay
:)))
Nighty Night